First off let me say that for all of my life, I have thought that this introspection and re-visiting our past was pretty "lame". Trendy and sport for psudo intellectuals who were getting in touch with their "feminine" side or inner children. I certainly would have never ventured into this area except that it is a recommended thing to do when on the road to recovery. Like most things I do, I study, and research the thing to death. After finding four well defined kinds of "Moral Inventory" processes, I asked my sponsor for his advice and was grateful for the help. This is my first time through the steps. I was given a quiz , asking direct questions about my childhood, adolescence, and adulthood, about 225 questions in all I guess, which was really good for me because it gave me a place to begin, This also gave me a chance to take the time to think about my life, the whole story and not just in episodes as I usually do. It also came out and bluntly asked me questions about issues in my life that I had been (wait for it, boys and girls...............) in denial about, and would rather not face. To fearlessly admit to myself the abuse that I suffered at the hands of others and the abuse that I have inflicted on others.
I have done this step just recently. I am here to tell you that through the whole process Jesus has been so close to me. He is the Truth, the Life, and the Way. He shows me that I will know the truth and the truth will set me free. I have been in bondage for so long, the road that I travel now has many painful days, but these are healing pains and not the injurious kind. This step is not at all what I thought that it would be, silly and frivolous, instead this step is a tryst with my Saviour.
Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Ps 139:23-24
Truly,
Trev.
Trev,
When I get back to this step on the podcast I would like to quote what you have said to help others. I believe it is important for people just beginning their recovery to see from others that Jesus is here by our sides at all times in the process.
He is in fact, The Way, The Truth, and The Life that we all need and may accept at any time through His grace.
Your post was a very enlightening read. I hope you continue to post your thoughts on this forum for others to see.
Remember to continue checking for offenses, continually correcting or changing.
Pastor Tom